The fall of 2007 was, for me, a time of self-reflection and life-changing decisions; coming to the realization that I must lose certain things in order to find myself.
For years, I worked at an interesting and profitable job in the chaotic corporate world. The stress of being on call 24/7 was beginning to take a toll on my mental and physical well-being. I found myself having incessant negative thoughts, doing something that I was no longer passionate about, and just going through the motions of life.
I took a long weekend to visit with friends at their lake house. While everyone sat around enjoying the beautiful weather, I prayed quietly and asked for some sort of sign that would lead me in the right direction. At that moment an upside-down rainbow appeared in the sky. I have been blessed to see many beautiful rainbows, but this one seemed to be saying, “don’t worry, everything is going to be alright”.
I returned to work with the thought, “just do the best you can and don’t over-exert yourself”. One day I felt sharp pains in my chest and my hands were aching. That is the day I knew it was time to make some changes in my life. I resigned from my job. Unfortunately, some family members were not supportive of my decision. The question was, “what are you going to do all day?” The answer: Get healthy and start to live again! I learned to set boundaries and not feel the need to have everyone’s approval. The decision was between me and my husband. Remember, YOU own your life. It belongs to you!
Some other healthy choices I’ve made have been letting go of friends who do not contribute to my growth or who drain my energy. I try to work on my relationships, but sometimes in life, we all have our own issues to deal with in our own time-line. I no longer hesitate to keep my own world healthy.
I realized that the things I owned ended up owning my freedom. We don’t need a lot to get by. We have lived in our house for the past eleven years, and I never had the time to truly appreciate the beautiful serene wooded trails behind our house. I didn’t make the time, nor did I understand how important it was to quiet the mind and really be in nature…to live it, breathe it, and not take an ounce for granted. A family of seven deer frequently keeps me company while I tweet and write to the world. Butterflies and birds keep me company while I gaze out my window with my thoughts. I am extremely grateful to have the freedom to write this post – to share with those who may be going through a similar situation. Yes, listen to your intuition; but be responsible for your economic decision.
I live my life with enthusiasm, and try to be positive every day. This is my on-going job. I try to keep my Twitter stream positive and live by the quotes I tweet. I now experience a much more fruitful life by choosing to be happy, even though at times it can be difficult. When darker things happen, I try to find the lesson in each situation. When I walk in the nature trails that I never noticed two years ago, I get to experience magical things. Positive affirmations and positive attitude can direct our day. Which direction do you choose?
My world became brighter once I chose to live each day in serenity and gratitude. My health is truly my greatest gift.